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They were sitting side by side on Remus Lupin’s bed without speaking. Three hours had passed since Nymphadora Tonks was clinging to him and was begging for his love. The events of this night were awful and a shock for all of them.
     Especially Lupin who had always believed into Snape’s loyality towards Dumbledore couldn’t believe what he had done this night. Dumbledore was gone. The only wizard Lord Voldemort had ever feared. And he died by the hand of someone he trusted. Lupin would never forget the look in Harry’s eyes: the pure anger and hate that was mixed into all his sadness and pain. He knew that he would be fine though. He had still Ron, Hermione, Ginny and Hagrid to take care of him.
     But what about him? Everyone who had cared for him was dead now.
     No, not everyone.
     He turned his head to see Tonks sad face. She forced a smile as he looked at her but her face was covered with tears that were still running down her face. She was crying silently since they had left Hogwarts an hour ago. And her tears didn't stop since then. Lupin would have cried too but he was currently in shock and wouldn’t allow his tears to fall again.
     “Are you hungry?”, he asked her only to break the silence.
     Tonks shook her head and looked down at her knees.
     “You didn’t answer my question yet.”, said Tonks after another minute or two. Her mousy brown hair was hiding her face as she was looking down. It was still strange for him to see it frizzy and colourless like this.
     “We’ve already talked about it-“, said Lupin.   
     “Remus...”, she interrupted him and her voice was about to break again as her stream of tears was becoming heavier. She turned her head to look at him. “I’m sick of your old, pathetic excuses, Remus. All you care for is yourself-“
     “No, I don’t-“
     “You’re so self centred-“
     “You don’t understand the situation I’m in. It’s complicated-“
     “Complicated?!”, she gasped. “And how would you call my life? Easy? Stop hiding after the fact that you’re a werewolf, Remus!”
     “I’m not hiding-“, he tried to defend himself.
     “Oh, then you’re noble or what? Perfect! What do you want? Do you want to play the martyr that dies in order to protect others?” She was getting more and more angry with every word she said although her tears were still falling. “Let me tell you something, Remus Lupin: you’re forgetting something. While you’re playing the hero and hang around with your werewolf pals I’m alone in here. I’m dying. You’re killing me. Whenever I hear that a werewolf had died; whenever I’m alone in my bed and cannot sleep; whenever you ignore me although we’re in the same room. Indeed, very noble, Remus. You’re such a hero.”
     It was almost scary to see her mood change like this. But Lupin understood her anger. She was right: he wasn’t noble at all. He was a coward. He couldn’t bear looking at her anymore. Remorse was biting his stomach.
     He stood up to leave the room but before he left he turned around for one last time.
     “Please stay here tonight.”, he said. “You can sleep in my bed if you want to. I’ll take the sofa.”
     “No. Please, give me time to think. It’s not easy.”

Lupin didn’t sleep that night. He didn’t expect he would. Tonks didn’t know it but she wasn’t the only one who was suffering under their separation.
     Lupin was dying, too.
     He looked at the huge magical hourglass in the corner of his parlour. Almost six in the morning.
     He remembered that Sirius was often sleepless, too, while he was trapped at Grimmauld Place number twelve. He often saw him alone in the kitchen where he was drinking fire whiskey only to distract himself. Lupin had always tried to cheer him up but never succeeded. Was he like Sirius now? A daredevil who was separating himself from others? Was he really like this?
     Lupin shook his head.
     “No.”, he whispered. He didn’t want to end like him. He didn’t want to carry this heavy gloominess anymore. Sirius died alone, without a wife, without any children. All he had left behind was his godson and a friend that would never forget him. But Lupin wasn’t alone. No. There was somebody who loved him, who would wait for him, who would do anything for him.
     It was Tonks.
     He remembered their first kiss and how he melted under her lips. It was better than his first flight on a cleansweep one. He remembered the smell of her hair. It smelled like daffodils no matter which colour or shape it had. He remembered the touch of her skin – softer than silk and warmer than sun light. He remembered the smiles she gave him; her awkwardness. He remembered everything.
     What was he waiting for?
     He wouldn’t hesitate another moment. He had to see her.

Tonks woke up as she heard to bedroom door clicking. She was still wearing her street wear and even her boots because she wasn’t intending to fall asleep. But her tears and tiredness had been stronger.
     She jerked as she saw Lupin standing only a few inches away from her and tried to hide the roll of toilet paper that she had used to dry her tears.
     “I’m sorry-“, she said before Remus was able to speak.
     “Shh.”, he said as he knelt down to her. “You were right, Dora. All the time. Always. But I ... I was to blind to see. I was a fool, my angel. Will you ... will you ever forgive me?”
     She blinked. Were her ears betraying her. Was it really true.
     “Always!”, she said and she almost stumbled on the ground as she tried to leave the bed.
     Lupin caught her in his arms and smiled at her. Their faces were so close that he could smell her sweet breath.
    “I really missed your awkwardness, Dora.”
     She smiled. “And I missed your smile, Remus.”
     Remus smiled and kissed her.
     And as they kissed Tonks hair turned from mousy brown to cotton candy pink.
Pairing: Lupin and Tonks

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partner: ~kimurii
assigned: August 10th
theme: Misfortune, 4th week
keywords: Frizzy, Roll of toilet paper, hourglass, Hungry, Ginny, Melted, Daffodils, Cleansweep One, Sad, Hagrid
word count: 1017 words

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LauraLF Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2007  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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Thank you! :hug:
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d'awww... i love it. its so emotional. keep it up marv.
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